Healthy looks different on every body!

2017, 2013, 2008 ,2002

I never thought I would post about my pant size when I started this whole journey but here goes nothing! Today for the first time since 2008 I put on l, buttoned, and confidently wore a size 14 jean! Honestly this is probably the first time in my life that I confidently walked out the house wearing that size pants.  
As far back as I can remember I’ve always wanted to be skinny! I never had any desire to be strong or muscular or athletic. It was more about the pant size and the number I saw on the scale and feeling like I was like everyone else, which in my mind was skinny. It wasn’t until a few years back that I actually cared about my health and wanted to make a change to become healthy not skinny. Through this new mindset I discovered a love for lifting weights, body pump, challenging myself and wanting to be strong! It definitely has been a process and didn’t happen overnight. I still struggle. I still have days I look in the mirror and hate what I see looking back at me, but those days have been growing further and further apart and the confident days more and more frequently!  
I truly believe healthy looks different on everybody! The 2008 version of myself was not healthy wearing that size 14. The 2002 version of myself who wore a size 10 truly was not healthy. The 2011 version of myself wearing the pink pants that I still am not confident enough to share the size of was the epitome of bad health. And although I still have goals the 2017 version of myself wearing a size 14 is the healthiest I’ve ever been in my life both mentally and physically. I’m confident and strong and as this past month has shown me I definitely can take what’s there and at me and not have a setback.   
I weigh a significant amount more than I did in 2008 but I am chalking that up to muscle. Moving forward my goals truly will be focused on making me healthier and stronger not a number. I started this whole thing 3 years ago with the mindset of if I could just get back into a size 14 I would be happy! Well I have done it and luckily gained my confidence and happiness long before I reached this size.  
Hopefully one day I’ll be brave enough and confident enough to share the size of the pink pants but until then I’m celebrating all of my hard work and thanking everyone that has supported me along the way! I know I couldn’t of done this without the people in my life that believed in me, cheered for me and have been there on the days that I wanted to give up.